Random, Randomness, Jake Gyllenhaal and a Velociraptor. I Think I'm in Love.

Conversational Tangents. I'm famous for them. Whenever I talk to my friends I tend to go off on the weirdest tangents. Now that I think about it all of my friends go off on the strangest tangents. We'll talk about one thing for a few moments and then just bring up something completely random. And then after that moment of randomness is over and we want to get back to the original conversation it takes us a while to remember what the hell we were talking about because the conversational tangent was so freaking random.

I don't think the word random has ever been used so much in a single utterance.... Random.

It makes me feel like I have a bad memory and I have an early onset of Alzheimer's. Because Alzheimer's totally runs in my family and it's one of my greatest fears to grow old and not be able to remember anything, like the old lady in "The Notebook". I won't be able to remember who I am, what I accomplished in my life, who my kids are, who my husband is. And then what would be the purpose of living if I'm just going to forget it in a couple of minutes? I suppose living for the moment? But how could I live in the moment if I don't even know who I am? But I digress... And do you see what I mean? I mean do you know just how much effort it takes me to just stay on topic for this blog?

It can't be normal how easily I get side tracked with things. And it's not just conversations that I get side tracked in. Whenever I browse the Internet or YouTube, I always seem to deviate from the originally searched item, or video.

For example, one day I decided, hmmm... I really like me some Jake Gyllenhaal, I'm gonna look him up to see what other movies he was in. Wikipedia, sure I love wikipedia *click*. Oh "Love and Other Drugs" I love that movie. Who the hell was the dude who played the brother, he was funny *click*. Oh he was in the broadway musical "25th Annual Putnam County Fair" oh cool, I totally love that musical. And he was also in this other play called "The Book of Mormon" oh cool *click*. The creators of that play is the same people who did "Avenue Q" cool. I love that musical too *click*. Oh my gosh I love the song "The Internet is for Porn" from AveQ, what are the lyrics to that again. Oh yeah, here they are. What was I on the Internet again for?

I mean thank god for a back history button on the freaking Internet browser, because if not I wouldn't be able to keep track of what the hell I was originally searching for. Especially if it's something important. Like for research papers, those are the worse. It's cause I have self diagnosed ADD. I can never really focus on the task in front of me.

But, like I was saying earlier, the worse tangents are conversational ones with my friends. A very good example of me having conversational tangents are with my friends when I'm on the phone. I don't know why, but random thoughts always seem to pop into my mind. A good example was of me and my friend, we started talking about dreams, then about giant squids, then randomly talking about velociraptors. It gets to the point where we have fun just tracking how we came to a certain point in our conversations. Sometimes it takes us a while. Because unfortunately my conversations do not have a back history button.

If you can logically make out the path my friend and I took that lead to that conversation I"ll give the first person who gets it right a little something something. Because lord knows that it took us a couple of minutes to figure out where we went in that conversational journey.

But in all honesty, I don't think my conversations, or life for that matter, would be as interesting as it is if they weren't for my weird tangents.

Tell Me To Do Something, and I'll Do It... Just Six Years Latter

I've always been the type of person who doesn't like to do things just because everyone else is doing it. But at the same time I very much like to do certain things because everyone else is doing it. So here I am constantly in a loop of not wanting to do things and then caving in, and I totally end up doing it. Not illegal things. Like drugs or something like that, for those kinds of things I can keep a firm stand but it's for trivial things like watching a TV show or movie, or listening to music, or checking out web sites. Granted these things are really minor, but sometimes I just feel so... I don't know... Like a not-wanna-be-follower or something along those lines.

My most recent experience of this has been in regards to the TV show "The Office". Everyone has said how much they enjoy the show, and how it was so funny, and how everything about it was so awesome. So here I am with everyone telling me I should watch it and that I'd just absolutely love it. But what do I do? I don't watch it of course. I mean first of all how can I? I can't just watch a show from the middle of a serries and expect to get all the inside jokes of the show. And did I mention that I hate being one of those people who just like things because everyone else likes it. So in conclusion I decided that I just didn't and wouldn't ever get "The Office" and I'd just let everyone enjoy their show that I just would never watch.

But after all these years of friends telling me I should watch it, when I finally get me some Netflix instant play on my iPad, I cave in and watch from the beginning. I mean really all shows should be watched from the beginning to get the full effect of the program. So I watched the first few episodes and surprise, surprise... I'm in absolute love with the show. Like everything else in my life, I began obsessively watching episodes like crazy. I mean it was all right there for the watching, so I watched them. I watched them all in like a week and a half.

And now I'm one of those people who watch "The Office". I never thought I was going to be one of those people, but I turned into one of those people. And now that I'm watching this show all I can talk about are Office references, and because I'm so behind everyone watching "The Office" no one really gets the references, they just kind of smile and nod and look at me like I'm a crazy person.

I suppose this is what I get for hopping on "The Office" train so late. Perhaps the lesson here should be to just try things before I make absolute decisions that I'm totally not going to keep.

Harry Potter and the Crazed and Obsessive Fan-Girl.

Soooo... The new Harry Potter film is coming out soon. Like in a little over a month. And I'm kind of freaking out. Why are you freaking out you may ask? Well... Because 12 years of my 21 years of life has been filled with the obsession that is Harry Potter. What am I going to do when this chapter of my life has officially come to an end? What am I going to do when the final movie comes out on DVD and there will be nothing new of the Harry Potter world coming to life, because everything is official done with? I fear I'm going to be one of those people who live in the past and I'll be telling my kids all about the time I stood in line for midnight openings, and how those were the days. Uggg! I sound like a grandma.

You may be thinking, stop being such a drama queen. Harry Potter couldn't have taken up that much of your life. Well.. let me tell you... From the moment I picked up my first Harry Potter book my life changed forever. I know that sounds dramatic, but it is so true. When I read I become so engrossed, a natural disaster could be happening around me, and if it's a good book, like Harry Potter, I wouldn't notice a god damn' thing. I feel like Harry, Hermione, and Ron have become members of my imaginary, awesome, fictional family. When Harry went through things I was right along side him cheering him on. When the golden trio were fighting I wanted they so desperately to get back together. And the many times I thought all hope was lost, I was beyond devastated.

Granted I sound like a crazy person, but this is truly how I feel about the Harry Potter books. when I finished the last book, it really was quite bitter sweet because it was over. I knew the ending, but there was going to be no more stories of the-boy-who-I-fell-in-love-with. I felt like, well now what? So what I did I do, I immediately started to re-read the last book again. I was in such a state of shock that ther serries was officially over that I NEEDED to re-read so I wouldn't go into a deep dark depression. I'm dramatic, so sue me.

What about the movies? you may ask. Well, like any TRUE Harry Potter fan, I hate them. Well I don't hate them but I'm not as in love with them as I am the books. The only reason I go to midnight movie openings is because it is Harry Potter. I'm one of those people who complain about what they left out of the movies, and how horrible the acting is, and how I could have potentially written the screen play much much better. But at the same time I love it, because anything to do with the Harry Potter universe I'm instantly love it.

So after I finished the last book I at least had the movies to look forward to in my Harry Potter universe. But now that the last movie is coming out soon, what am I going to do? How am I going to react to this major chapter in my life coming to a close? What will my life amount to? Okay so I know that's dramatic but it's how I feel okay... I know I'll get over it eventually, but right now in this moment, I'm kind of freaking out just thinking about it.

So I guess to get over this I'll start re-reading from the beginning. I have about a month and a half. Let the Harry Potter reading marathon begin!